Tickled Pink

Today the painter came and transformed Cameron's former bedroom into a pink room for Abby Grace. When I left for work it was blue and when I came home,I went upstairs and saw the pastel pink walls. Suddenly all these feelings came rushing through me... I think I am going to have a daughter.This is going to be her bedroom,where I will read her bedtime stories and teach her bedtime prayers. We will have tea parties and mom/daughter talks. If through the Grace of God, we are in trusted with this child to be in our family...what a gift. I am already so blessed with my two boys and I realize how in my younger days,out of ignorance, I took those gifts for granted. I think because those gifts came fairly easy. I wanted to have a baby and a few months later I was pregnant.Nine months later, I had a beautiful healthy baby boy. With this adoption taking 5 years,set back after set back, the heart breaking nights of questions,doubt and tears,wondering if this dream would ever come true. It has been SO long and hard but it has taught me so much about appreciation especially for the gifts you already have,giving up control but not giving up your dream and finally, trusting that my heavenly Father has a plan for my life. It is not my plan but his,it is not my timing but his and if I just have faith he will show me HIS way. My prayer now is that I will soon hear the words I have been longing for 5 years. "We received your Letter of Approval,you're going to China to pick up your daughter. Oh what a joyful day it will be....

Shopping Fun

I took advantage of the new measurements that were sent with the pictures last week and did a little shopping for Abby-Grace. It was FUN FUN FUN!! I can't go too crazy because the measurements are not always reliable. The agency said to buy one outfit smaller and one larger than what you think they wear. I was also given some cute hand me downs.(Thanks Angie and Tina). Most of the stuff I bought was on sale and I found shirts at Walmart for a dollar. You just can't pass up a bargain like that. My "Splurge" purchase were the adorable jeans I have pictured. Once I saw they said "Dreams Do Come True" They were MINE or should I say HERS! It will be so amazing when I can actually have her with me shopping(atleast until she's a teenager:)and I know that it fits her. I also can't wait for our LOA(letter of approval) then I can send her something and she will probably get it because they will tell her she is going to be adopted. I want to send a small photo album(like a brag book) with pictures of all the people and places that will be part of her new world. Looking ahead this week, the upstairs bedroom goes from blue to pink and it officially becomes"Abby's room". I promise to post pictures as the transformation takes place. What a day it will be the first time I can walk her upstairs and show her all the things we picked out for her with hope and love in our hearts. I hope she can feel all that love and hope we have for our future together. Thank you God for this gift that I know I don't deserve, your Grace is truly amazing. I will be reminded of this grace every time I say her name.

My Little Fashion Disaster

We got a few new pictures of Abby yesterday,which is always so emotional. I am so thankful to get another glimpse of her but I cry because she is so big and it just reminds me of how she is growing up over there and we are waiting over here. I feel desperate to go get her. The first picture is my favorite picture ever because she looks like a little girl who might be having a little fun. It is not posed and she is away from the orphanage. I look at that picture and my heart bursts with love!I want to go blow bubbles with her. The second photo,I laughed out loud.Who dressed this child?? OH MY -SOMEONE CALL THE FASHION POLICE. She looks so big in this picture and she has grown quite a bit,her new measurements are height 3ft7in and weight 41lbs. I had bought some size 5 clothes for her but I think I am going to bring them back and get a 6.
We have been logged in for over 30 days. Hopefully approval will come quicker than the usual 90 days,like it did for the last family and we can go get her in May. You'd think after all this time and being this close, I would have learned patience..not so much. One thing I have learned is to trust God and his plan for your life and so I will wait for his perfect timing to finally hold my daughter.